Growing
It's that time again. I haven't blogged all week, because it's been a crazy one... I'll catch up with myself soon (please, Daddy?) but for now, five minutes is all I can manage, so... Go.
I don't know what I can say about growing, except that it's something I don't feel I'm doing at the moment. This desert season, this pruning time, this dryness... That is what I see. It is something that I'm finding hard, because this has followed a rich season. It was a season rich in pain, but it was also rich in life, new life, and love and relationship and Love. Even this five minutes feels hard, and too raw. I cannot concentrate, and I want to abandon this and weep. There's vulnerable for you. Pruning is necessary for new growth, and growing-time will come again, and probably sooner than I think possible. A precious friend had a word for me that God says springtime is here, with bluebells and daffodils and new lambs... I love all those things and have a growing love for Spring (I used to be an Autumn girl all the way - I love Daddy's colour palette for this time of year) and all I want to do is fly away and find a Springplace. Wings and feathers are all that I can think about.
And stop. Enough.
Oh those desert seasons are so tough. Often looking back we can see the growth produced, but in the midst...so hard. I hope that you find your Springplace soon, and are sweetly surprised by the growth that comes out of this dry patch.
ReplyDeleteOh, the pruning is so tough. The word growth looks so positive at first glance and sometimes I forget about those low points and trying times. They lead to new growth in the end, but I guess they call it "growing pains" for a reason.
ReplyDeleteVisiting from 5 minute Friday, btw.
I know those dry valleys all too well. But rest assured although you do not feel as if you are growing, this is the season where He is taking your roots down deep, to drink of the rich water underground. You will once again come alive.
ReplyDeleteMatthew 4 is a comfort to me when I am in the wilderness-- inthe desert where nothing grows. Jesus went there under the leadership of the Holy Spirit. It was purposeful for Jesus to be there. He identifies with our wilderness experiences. Jesus quotes from Deut. 8--"Man does not live by bread alone but from every Word that proceeds from the mouth of God."
ReplyDeleteHere's a little bread (manna) Hosea 2:15: There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will sing as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt.
Thanks for sharing. Your Daddy is with you.
Jumped over from Five Minute Friday.